Sunday, March 15, 2015

One Week...



One week... was all it took for things to unfold...
a time frame that has happened one too many times before...
first it was my incompatibility and now it is your insecurity...
yet time and time again... i keep coming back for more...

*had someone put the brakes on me after discovering my love for kink...
 it shook me to the core but  “shake it off” i did...

**then came the trip of a lifetime, 5 days... of pure heaven...
a week later... to save myself from sorrow, i did what i did...

...(delete)

One week was all it took for things to suddenly change...
how a matter of miniscule... could turn me the other way...
i don’t know if i can truly endure... and live in this crazy world...
a world where it’s so hard to find love...
 love a guy and be gay...


~ by N!LoC ~

Sunday, March 8, 2015

Another First...




yeah...

there it is...

the first guy to ever reciprocate an "i miss you" ... with a "miss you too"...

(and the other part of that is just a recognition of the "kinky" things we did together)

** insert deviant but innocently sadistic giggle**

hihihi

:-)



SIN : An American In Singapore...



continued from part 7...

all in all ... this was yet another trip of a lifetime...

i never thought that i would enjoy myself as much as i did with a guy i met from such a sleazy gay app...

i have experienced so many new and wonderful things in the course of 5 days than i had in the past 5 years...

he is "james bond"....  (ala coming out of the hotel pool in a sexy speedo just like that epic Daniel craig moment)

he is "the terminator".... (ala being a beast in the hotel gym for my eyes only to stare and be in complete and utter awe)

he is "ms. congeniality"... (ala being so considerate of my lack of social abilities when i was the 3rd wheel while he met up with his friend for a beer as he tried to include me in their conversations...) 

**so as we spent our last hours together rushing to the airport and checking in to terminal 3 or terminal 2 and flights being delayed and whatever... i kept replaying all the good times we had together... (feeling a little sad that this could very well be our first and last goodbye...)

he mentioned... “that’s the beauty of life” ... you never know what’s going to happen... and as i pondered on his statement...

i couldn’t help but wonder...

how things would turn out... if a guy like him and a boy like me were somehow living in the same city...

where he could be my “MR. BIG”.... and i could be his “CARRIE”...



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